Wednesday, February 4, 2009

The Melacnholy Brought Upon by New Year's Eve


It's New Year's Eve again. Is it just my imagination or are the years going by at an accelerated pace? I have never done alot for New Year's Eve because there are too many crazy drunks out on the road. Most of the time, we have a small gathering at home with friends. This year, Patrick is at work and I am sitting here with a drink and thinking about what I want to do with this upcoming year, and with my life. No, don't feel sorry for me. At least Patrick is not half-way across the world! Today is the last day that Patrick is active-duty Navy. It's amazing to think that the military lifestyle is no longer what we will be living. I will miss the moving around. The picture above is the view from our balcony in Gaeta, Italy. I think that the New Year always brings about a bit of melancholy in most people. I am finding myself missing the different places we have lived, and the people we have known. Perhaps this is because we haven't met many people here yet, and I am so far away from my friends.


Perhaps it is also because I am thinking about all the things that I want to do, but haven't. I have always had one hundred and one dreams, and yet I am such a procrastinator that I feel as though I very rarely get any of them done! I am hoping that I will be able to change many things about my outlook on life this year.


I don't want to take this time to think of resolutions, but to think more on a larger scale. Of course like almost all Americans (who am I kidding, most women, no matter where they are from), I always want/need to lose weight - be more healthy. But there are so many other things that I want to do. Here are just a few of the things I am hoping to accomplish in my life, in no particular order. Let's hope that I can do some of them this year!


  • I want to become comfortable with myself, both physically and mentally.
    I want to become fluent in French, and after I do that I would like to become fluent in Italian as well!
    I want to work on my writing and finish my book.
    I want to learn how to garden this yard I finally have.
    I want to knit a sweater.
    I want to learn how to play the piano.
    I want to be a better friend to those I love.
    I want to downsize, and not buy anything I do not need.
    I want to try to be more conscious of the environment and my impact on it.
    I want to not feel afraid of being me. No matter what people may think.
    I want to learn how to sew.
    I want to learn something new all the time - whether it may be a new word, a new recipe, or a new idea.
    I want to meditate and concentrate on the spiritual side of life that I seem to have forgotten about.
    I want to read more. For those of you who know me, this seems unbelievable because I already read just about everything I can get my hands on. But I want to read more classics and study things such as philosophy.
    I want to realize my potential.

I am wishing only the best for this upcoming year for all who read this. I hope that this New Year brings you all that you are wishing for, and that all your dreams will come true!


(This was originally posted on December 31, 2008 at 11:08pm)

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